When people ask me what kind of artist I am, I like to tell them I'm an escape artist.
What was I running from? Myself
AMANDA'S STORY
I was 35 years of age before I finally met myself. It happened one Thursday evening in the summer of 2010 as I sat on a therapist’s floor, looking for a cloth to cover the naked, chopped haired barbie doll I had decided was me. It was in that session, I discovered that I knew way more about what I truly needed than I ever had believed. I just never learned to trust myself.
That fucked up Barbie was a shocking insight into how I'd always treated myself & the beginning of a journey that would see me burn my entire life to the ground, before daring to build it back up again. But this time, as my TRUE self. In other words, the woman I might be if I stopped believing shitty things about me. I'll be honest, it hasn't been easy. In fact, it's been the hardest work I've ever had to do. Because I've had to confront an awful lot of shit about myself & I didn't always like it. Self compassion as it turned out, wasn't my strong suit.
I was a complete ARSEHOLE to myself, comparing, judging, pressuring myself to always be 'the best'. But it wasn't my fault. Just like it's not your fault if you're an ARSEHOLE to you too. But it is our responsibility to stop it. Because honestly, it's just so boring & it makes cool people, who are not arseholes to themselves, want to avoid you like the plague. And they will, until you learn to put down the many sticks you use to beat the ever loving shit out of yourself.
Neuroscience is teaching us that true self-expression might be one, if not the most important of ways, for us to connect more meaningfully with life.
Learning to not be an arsehole to myself has proven over and over again, to be the work of my lifetime. This, in spite of a fierce resistance to love & trust myself NOW & not WHEN I reach some magical future place where I finally 'get my shit together'. Mine is a story of TRUE SELF RECOVERY. Maybe yours is too? Because it matters to me that I enjoy my life. That I live the story I want to tell & have told about me. It's as simple as that, really.
Learning to not be an arsehole to myself has proven over and over again, to be the work of my lifetime. This, in spite of a fierce resistance to love & trust myself NOW & not WHEN I reach some magical future place where I finally 'get my shit together'. Mine is a story of TRUE SELF RECOVERY. Maybe yours is too? Because it matters to me that I enjoy my life. That I live the story I want to tell & have told about me. It's as simple as that, really.
You don’t have to hustle. You don’t need a 'valid' reason to justify the investment of your time & energy. And yes, you can certainly make the journey alone. But aren't you tired of trying to figure this shit out on your own? That's where I come in. This is not about 'finding yourself'. You are not a missing sock in a pile of laundry. You already know EXACTLY who you are. This is about BELIEVING yourself & believing IN yourself. And I teach you the PERMISSION, THE INTELLIGENCE, THE AUDACITY & THE POWER, to do it on PURPOSE, no matter what.
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PODCAST SUPERSTAR
GREY AREA DRINKING
August 2023 | Time: 58 min
Amanda openly shares her experience of grey area drinking, the devastating impact it can have on a person's sense of dignity, self worth & mental health & how sobriety has changed her perspective on relationships.
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What's More Valuable Than Money?
July 2023 | Time: 38 min
"The closer in relationship I am with my money, the more calm I feel. And the further away I am in my relationship with my money, the more distressed I feel"
Corporate To Calm
Nov 2022 | Time:1:12:15
Amanda talks about her journey with self-esteem & how women are conditioned to take up as little space as possible. She teaches worthiness is an identity & the importance of being true to yourself.
Your Truth Shared
July 2022 | Time: 49 min
Amanda discusses how you don’t owe your decisions loyalty & her relationship with resentment. We also hear Amanda’s take on overdelivering, financial exhaustion & the dangers of straying away from the truth.
Choosing Different
April 2020 | Time: 45 min
Amanda's description of grief as 'the unwanted companion' is a sentiment shared by all of the GE team. Amanda & Sasha discuss this relationship & the importance of remaining present to your lost loved one.
The Unruffled Podcast
July 2019 |Time: 128 min
Tammi & Sondra talk about their fabulous Portland meetup at Amanda’s profound RAW workshop as well as Amanda’s unfurling transformation that has occurred since they last spoke.
How the pieces fit together.
2018 | Time: 62 min
Amanda talks about her beginnings as a make up artist & how her background in creativity, hospitality and psychotherapy, form and inform the pillars of her practice.